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To Move or Not to Move
Al Desko
As Snow
To Move or Not to Move
Al Desko
As Snow
Misfit 101
Arriving in Florence
Arriving in Florence
It
Sounded Like Sicily
Journey
Beyond Three
A Life in Headlines
Neo-Geo
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And now, come our likes, our loves, come
with somatic intensities, come capers,
come doings with your thick springs,
come childhoods with your fist of leashes
unclenched, and latch a past to
soar our hearts through the cyclone pageant.
I'll ornamental for, will spread like the hooks
of barbed wire, my other half, useless,
robust, and blaze lamps for you.
Let's no longer care who sees us.
One can release the wilds
of yesterday into their opposite,
for the fluids that flew through us
are now sluggish and congeal.
I’ll keep an eye on the past
and its pacing. I’ll keep the sky
alive with our greatest mentor.
We’ll not air-raid doohickeys
on our presumed nitwit comrades,
shish-kebabing them while networking
ourselves as peppy, posh and sociopathic.
We’ll stop pickling in our self-loathing.
“See you later” implodes all expressions.
The dinosaur pills put in water
sponge into a lacking luster.
Let’s not let them turn us
into a fireless ash, giving over
the second half of life to the recovery
of the first half.
Let's not drill-down value-added deliverables
to operationalize quick-wins for rightsizing.
Even the sky feels owned.
Consumer mourning outlets vary per country
and era, but please, let’s do something,
and era, but please, let’s do something,
anything, so the color comes back on.
To Move or Not to Move
Al Desko
As
SnowTo Move or Not to Move
First war, then a series of late lessons,
then a harvest of regrets,
idly circling familiar thoughts
like a brat on a merry-go-round.
So I took a bottomless lake,
a body without gravity, serious malaise
and conceived of bringing two fictoids
to Paris where they would conduct amazement
via desultory subjects with fashionable shops
of near-Italian locutions, for I would like
to exchange pleasantries for handbags,
or rather those that go with them.
I’ll wear quirky pulsating bouillon
in the pursuit of a stable regime. But
will the display of handicrafts betray
a palpable boredom becoming
just a snazzy version of yet another
despotic state, as a name-brand car
describes a particular religious intention?
I hardly know where to begin.
I hardly know where to begin.
Al Desko
Al desko with chile con queso
is cool beans reprieve
from screenshots of crony barbarism
and my digital footprint
going all duck face
Oh, IDC
then lolcat appears
beside middle-aged woman
in lycra, a very keen
road cyclist, hawt
for dodging
the misery index
train wrecks at tech café
but out there somewhere
has to be
the ant’s pants
the ant’s pants
I
could travel for miles.
I
could fall and rise again.
Crunched
underfoot, I’d be hard
as
a rock. I’d settle on stones, but
make
them soft. Like white drops
from
the divine, as white as
glass
through which the light
of
silence shines. I could
ride
the wind. I could be
stacked
against a tree, a happy way
of
saying death has arrived.
I
could be a haiku:
Etched on the bird’s wings
the story of one’s life
powder to the touch
Or
be strange new thoughts: Will I
dance
around my maker’s head?
People
would slip on me
yet
I would soften their blow.
I’d
have fifty names instead of two.
If
I were a flag, I’d flow
with
the breeze but be moored in
too
deep. I’d like to be a window,
but
four-cornered up as well as
out.
And as the sky I’d cry,
so
let me ease those shores
where
the old ocean tires.
Let
me be snow so the soul
roams
free with little tint of me,
and
learns to love that fire.
Misfit 101
Arriving in Florence
Misfit 101
for Dean Young
No one knows how to do it – congratulations!
Your plan should be wrecked – chutzpah!
It always intends otherwise, so be ready
to abandon and attend to the conspiracy.
But business is booming? J’accuse!
Go on, rival the world you mitigating agent,
you accelerant of spectral love,
for time is running out!
Draw your conclusions past the edge
of the page to their own extinction,
be it through the impossibility
of their existence, or their self-ruination.
Always gather fuel, sometimes mixing
the beakers to see again what fuel is,
since Monster Will will not die.
Triangulate yourself into
the transubstantiation of your choosing.
First urges are best, don’t be an old fogy
and wreck them – wreck yourself if you have to,
not your work.
May it coincide with the babble referents
of Tonka trucks and Barbie-loves.
Perpetual porous ones, riot in the unattainable!
Let your body pursue its own ideas,
not having the same ideas as you do.
Read about lovers in a book
if you want control.
What’s it all for? Nada et tout.
And don’t take yourself for the CEO
of a large multinational, for being big honcho
is as much whim as smarts.
Were you born in Ghana or Greenwich?
Maybe Toronto has the right tongue
for the human pang.
Have one foot in the tribe of your camp
if you like, but for God’s sake not both feet.
Late in the party sleep in the chandelier.
More wreck and less discourse please.
Wouldn’t it be nice to make birds
instead of birdcages?
If you hit a wrong note, lay on it
like Coltrane.
If you want to be a wizard, make
sure your dog pulls back the curtain
so you can say, “Pay no attention
to that man behind the curtain.”
Next slide: ___________________
A lullaby to frighten us out
of our pitiful impotence
would be swell.
To be an unacknowledged legislator,
or to be a legislator of the unacknowledged?
It’s better if we don’t fully understand it,
so take it out of the stable, ride it
to God-knows-where and let it
find its way back.
May you get better at not knowing,
in order to sketch, botch, slog and
grope your way through.
Oftentimes find your lovetime,
when the flowers turn towards you.
If you found Grace Slick at Trisha Nixon’s
wedding trying to dose the punch bowl
with acid, what would you do?
Insert M-80, light, and let the pages
of the Norton anthology fly!
So that meaning can begin, and
in so doing, be undone again.
What’s a Teddy without a tantrum
and a good smack upside the head
now and then?
Can I get you a number of drinks?
The audience? They’re for privacy or
they’ll think you mongrel,
so don’t worry about them.
Think of someone arriving and now standing
next to you in the poetry section
of the bookstore (now extinct). You don’t say
“Hey there, how about ol’ Wally-boy?”
but fold in upon yourself in embarrassment.
What is that about?
Performance: Was your poem drawn up
by committee? Then why sell it
to a committee?
Perception: clash of the seen
with the unseen, glimpse of the nudge
between love and endsville.
Be careful of the rhyme bloom and doom.
What I know about form could fill a thimble,
what form knows about me will be my end.
If only for the liberty of unimaginable opulence:
I still don’t know what I’m doing.
Don’t reactors have somewhere within them
a radiant core?
What if I turn myself into a laboratory
to cultivate – here come the monsters!
Exibit B - -- - _ -- ---- - __ - --- _ - ___ -- - --
As the Liberty Bell is more convincing
with its crack, is not everything
more valid while obtaining the desired
suddenness of particular associations?
For day is darkness compared to
the lightening-filled night.
When wine is flowing with the sound
of thunder – oh happy grocery list!
When blood in the erection is taken
from the brain – oh happy unthinking!
Constantly disrupted, constantly regrouping,
like when one meets another’s eyes,
how else account for that voltage?
Nay a brittle cause for crack-up,
than for music since we’re nimble.
Why work on craft when we could be
clobbered by angels? Maybe we can’t
make them come, but we can
sweep the steps of the temple.
Don’t skip the vital rogue data: let the primitive
reassert itself.
Like the early delight of third graders,
natural-born surrealists, saboteurs, reckless,
ready to plunge in, laughing, their hearts
kites wired to a hundred ears.
Reading by flashlight in the storm,
ask yourself, will it be worth those
last moments of the batteries?
For information is a corpse
to a mad-hopping hope, beginning again
and again, reveling in mortal being,
aspiring to the everlasting.
Like the geometric proof of a foxglove rising
through cement, like a body breaking through
the idea while the music reinvents us,
a signal going through us
like an inkling of God.
like an inkling of God.
Arriving in Florence
We saw a horse on its side, breathing
like a fish on the bottom of the empty river.
I wanted to kick the horse or pull it
right side up. My sister was ill and wanted
to go far away, a strange thing to desire
on one’s wedding day. She threw a horseshoe
up into the sky and it came back down,
scattering everybody.
My sister’s talking on the phone,
the expression on her taut face matches
the telephone cord: umbilical, biblical even,
radiating a palpable energy.
Must be Mars again, separating himself
from the pile of sick birds.
Who would like to sever the chord more?
He? She? Me? Spending so much time
saying goodbye, no wonder everyone’s ashen-
faced. Goodbye, trees. Goodbye, disconnected
heads. We’re on our way to the stars.
I heard everything that could possibly be said
about the matter of dysfunction, until
I saw no shadows, being filled
with light. And laughter. Thank God
for that. There was also no river,
jammed as it was below large birds
circling above our pluckable heads.
Not much else besides the ticking
and talking. We thought when we arrived
it would be all Venus, arranging the pieces,
but not so, said Mars, lying flat
on the empty riverbed, struggling
for air and water. He wiggled and moved
dust around, creating soft-choking clouds.
The voice on the loudspeaker turned out
to be my voice. But this had happened
over and over, before I realized
I hadn’t turned the power button on.
Over and over, saying something,
and nothing.
The wedding cake looked like a birthday
cake. Something in cursive written
on the side of it in red letters. Who would eat
words? I thought about childhood.
All splits. I thought about the future.
Splits again.
Maybe we should reposition ourselves
upside down for a while. The bridges
aren’t working, so slippery they are with dust.
I walked across one of them, part way,
and felt the frustration of the horse
and the desperation beside the empty river.
So filled with static, the loudspeakers
weren’t working again. I felt like leading
a revolution. Though there was no enemy
really, but outsized, unexamined flaws.
Who knew this lovely valley, so green
and fertile, could get so cold.
Who knew we’d have to squint and grasp at
the forty-year bonds cracking between us.
When I came to, I threw my bullhorn
at the loudspeaker.
When I came to, I was pinned to the air,
overlooking the valley of leaves
turning color, smoke gently lifting.
Extreme end-time had come.
We were shells tossed out
of the stormy ocean. Mars had fallen
and we were shaken. His self-reigning
had smeared his face where once
solid metal was, from a visage shiny,
to something more like wet rust.
to something more like wet rust.
It Sounded Like Sicily
When
the yogini (tantrica?) asked me to love her
I
whispered: precipice, into heaven
Because
precipice sounds like presuppose
Because
I wanted inundation
What?
She said
Yes,
everything, I said
Her
ears from the East
Her
eyes approaching
I
knew I was damaged, but if I could
sustain
one song: I could be, suppose
Sex
on the floor in various poses would be best
I
whispered: statuette, monument come to life
To
begin, I named us sexually
It
sounded like Sicily
For
pure, I said pristine looking
over
the ocean, isle for vocation
Vision
and ocean, they go together, she said
Could
it be that you and I
look
at the ocean together, I said
And
again, twice, thrice…
I
would need to live in a large
Space,
she said
I
knew I was yearning, but
asked,
What kind of space?
Like
that, she said, and pointed to a mirror
framing
the moon. What? I said
Because
the precipice was so high
Because
pristine can be such a mess.
Journey Beyond Three
Journey Beyond Three
Why
will you not let us in?
It’s true we’re made of dust,
but
are we not also our father’s kin?
It’s also true we’re born
from
your foe, our mother, but was it
us who swiped at you so?
When
you both moved from one side
of the country to the other,
did
you not have all you wanted, removed
from our mother and your
rows?
We visited, my two sisters
and I, wanting to be
close
to our elusive father. Drawing near,
I glanced up and saw king-size
on
the living room wall, a family tree
without us there. Why did
that
happen? Though I didn’t ask, to
invoke what may lie deeper in.
I
dropped my eyes and withdrew
to the kitchen, where I
learned
a son would be born. What will
you name him? I asked.
“Why,
William Dwight Shaw III,”
you said. What? You
can’t
do that. “Why not?” you said.
Because that’s me!
“He’ll
be from your father, and from
your father’s father, it follows
therefore
in word that he’ll be the third.”
Yes. Except for me.
Am
I not worthy to be? “You are, you
are,” you said with a smile
(just
not as much as he). Our talk declared
done, I asked myself,
who
will be this William Dwight Shaw
III? Who will be me?
*
As
it turned out, three girls you begot,
in part for the previously
three
to be forgot. The same dog
was bought. And the succession
of
things said and done, why such need
to wipe us out at last,
by
taking possession of our past?
Will frames, names and
numbers
be the way to prove your
worth, when it’s inherent
by
your birth? At least twice now
you’ve tried to erase me.
Before
there’s a third, I protest, your
stepson is a little more
than
none. But not too much more,
for when my mentor
overturns
the cup I bring, let there fall
out only a drop or three,
all
the more room to let in, to reach out
and sing. For I feel I'm
finally
beginning to see. It’s you who’s
my spritiual teacher, asserting
your
world, awakening mine, how to be,
whether bought, sold, or
to
unfold, to scold or not to scold: such
fire all these years, until
at
last I realized not to take it personally.
I began to hear as if I had
no
ear: the vitality, far away, now near.
Where are we trying to get to
from
here but a stomping prosperity,
when what’s closer and
more
real than our interrelated causality?
I see your charm, spirit
and
zeal too. We’ve even talked, us two,
but little’s been real or
true,
and that being my fault as well,
I now make this earnest plea:
May
you no longer need to triumph
in a sordid majesty; May I
no
longer need to triangulate between
your guard, my father and me.
*
But
let’s be honest, this will not
happen. There’s still
too
much coercion and resignation
to bear. Father, you love
in
person, but wrestling with being
seen but not heard, cave
to
your deceptive wife. Where are you
in this amalgam of three?
“A
happy wife, a happy life,” you say,
evoking Macbeth. But
it’s
a sustained bout to discover
oneself reduced to
a
bracket. Why would I remain in this
racket? For the partial
comfort
it brings? Because I’ve lost
my center? The cost of
hosting
another in the head and heart
may be the best place
to
start. I’ll prepare then another way
to be. Less tongue and
eardrums
to a different rhythm.
I’ll try and letter a deeper
cosmos.
Dante harried into a dark
wood, then dove into
the
universe. I’ll build within
this slip of pebbles,
spacious
un-control, and uplift.
*
(I’m
writing another section [in four-line stanzas] which unpacks, explores and
visualizes this “other way to be” and “spacious un-control and uplift” in a
kind of Buddhist resolution to the previous strife in the poem.)
A Life in Headlines
Boy thinks school is like a rotten house
and wishes he were snow so when thrown
down by bullies can land softly on his feet
hoisting a new view
a blitzkrieg of study
the simultaneous gaze
windowing several wedding parties
geometric proofs
most of us are like this most of the time?
*
a stage-three fright alert
activist forgets stupid people who gain power
are never stupid about threats to their power
a mountaineer’s glissading boot-path
after girl walks in, and especially out, door,
humanistic qualities increase in writer’s work
main event in man’s life was his non-marriage
little holy trickeries of rum with mint
swinging from a chandelier
*
a civic-seeming ordinariness
privately repudiated
two-time felon
and one-time Pulitzer-prize winner
declares art and crime
the only careers with any sex appeal
*
historical ventriloquist, confusionist
and tantrumist, now deflecting arrows
towards acerbic lightness
for who wants to be indexed
to a subprime? Advancing fork
without a pie, end-arrows have ouch.
The clock of snow becoming
rusty with happiness, breath is
finally flowering in the cold.
finally flowering in the cold.
Neo-Geo
Drug aisle’s come and
eliminated the present,
flawlessly creating glowing
diodes
highlighting body wash;
the ambient bondage
leaching xexon light
instills storyness…
Exasperate
and confound the enemy,
says
Retriever-K.
People
will continue, but as clicks
and
apply, replies Demo my NeoBrand.
I
suspect your original is having a human change meltdown
makeover,
Facebook playing plastic surgeon again. What image
do
you aspire to? Unplump, unbuttoned and
convivial? A party
that
spills out onto the lawn?
Fear
Of Missing Out here. Hi guys.
Did
you hear that?
Hear what?
What’s
your pocket of space-time
as
the noiseless foot of FOMO trots beside?
I
need to feel endless in every direction.
Text-expand.
I
feel myself observed, I constitute myself, pose,
instantaneously
make another, transform, advance into,
settlement,
unrevelment. Join me before re-tedium installs?
Don’t
try to reverse-psycho me into that strobe.
I
hear a self-declared narrator. Narrative is for dead people.
We
solidify only when subjected to likes.
Compassionate
capitalism?
Neighborhood,
yes. Ocean over, yeah! Connect!
Don’t
accuse me of being an accumulation posting.
How
are you incorporated?
Which
experience of almost?
Global-decorative
here, same-paged
in
whited-out work-face. You?
In
post-op black hole, where logos mock and scroll.
Continuum
of translation?
Affective
possibility space.
Meet
me at Inc. Corral?
Can’t
go outside.
Why
not?
Hasn’t
been rendered yet.
It’s
an idea I conceive of as architecture.
Articulation
space of speech.
Coma-Boat.
I
hear we’ve got to learn to walk backwards
if
we’re going to fly.
Why
fly?
The
world ended three weeks ago, starting now.
Command-Z-it.
Done.
Capitulation is sexy
when
you land on the right vibration.
You
are your area only if you take it in.
What’s
“in”?
A
gravity slave.
A
decade dropped like glass?
Sluggish
cognitive tempo.
I’d
rather borrow tomorrow’s fun.
You’re
really starting to put some lead in my pencil.
Text-slugged:
ancient-jargoned non-compute.
What
donkey-sphincters use
to
script the war, offshoring bug-splats.
I’m
bored.
Halt!
Hypervigilant for threat: lower-case
sans
serif appearing (corporate code for friendly).
Promise
of proximity?
Refilter
your image.
Emerge
enhanced?
Or
attract new likes.
Problem
arises.
Perfected
self might win?
Selfie-ready,
but…
Unsafe?
Beginning
to withdraw.
Why
now?
No
encrustation; will soon be reversible.
I
see your mark.
My
clone and his clone’s avatar are at war.
Post
hyper-cute adoption video?
Post-haste
too many lolpeeps.
Time
wounds all heels.
Enough said.
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